Shoot for the stars!

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To take a step into the unknown when you have lived with chronic pain and fatigue for so long is truly a daunting prospect. 

Unlike Christopher, I have very little experience with adventures of any kind. I haven't explored the vast oceans, nor have I backpacked through foreign lands. No, I haven't even left the land I was born in, and have only left this small province on a few notable occasions. 

My adventures have been vicarious, I have lived through those posting vlogs and blogs, and those heroines in novels, movies an TV series. I have told myself tales of the life I dreamed of as I lulled myself to sleep through the most painful and restless nights. I have distracted myself from the haze of brain fog and fatigue by allowing myself to become absorbed in the adventures I saw on screens or in my mind's eye. And that, I thought, would have to be enough for me. 

But then something changed. The Mild Traumatic Brain Injury which was contributing at least in part to the more severe of my symptoms, healed. 

For the first time in what seemed like forever, I was able to begin to live a life a little closer to normal, and dreams that seemed so far out of reach, became a little more conceivable. Each small step in a direction, seemed to shift my trajectory radically, and I never really knew what would lie right around the corner. 

Suddenly life seemed to speed up and the day I moved into the small home we rent has become a distant memory and each month simultaneously seems like a lifetime and feels like it is gone in the blink of an eye. 
 
I want to live, I want to see things and do things and not only read about and imagine things, and I want to do it while Christopher and I are still young(ish) and capable. 

There's no guaranteeing tomorrow, and there's certainly no guaranteeing the rest of our lives. so what better time to start than now, and what better target than the stars? 

If we miss the stars, at the very least we'll have a great view of the earth from a higher orbit than when we started.

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